Where in the double hockey sticks we've been....

I cant even begin to fill in everything that we've been up too since the last time I wrote.  All I can say, is that being a full time mommy and a full time wife and a full time student has definitely caught up to me!  I have just completed my 3rd to last semester ***two*** left now!  THANK THE LORD!  I head into my internship in the fall!!! YAY!!! This time next year I will have my BSW and about 40,000 in college loans to pay back! So excited!!!!  No, but really, I am truly blessed to have been given the opportunity and strength and support to go back to school and finish up.  I am hoping to make a difference in many lives.  I will not be stopping when I finish, I will be going onto Grad School, and just being the 1st person in my family (other than my DH and his family) to be getting my Bachelors is an honor.

Speaking of honor, we lost the rock of our family.  (which is part of the reason I have neglected my blog so much, I've had writers block)  My father in law passed in December, right before Christmas after battling terminal brain cancer that was diagnosed on 4 short weeks earlier.  He is the ONLY reason I went back to school.  He pushed me.  He stopped his studies so that he could watch our youngest and I could become a college grad.  It breaks my heart.  It also breaks my heart that he was my youngest best friend.  He was our glue. 

So now that I am done with school for the time being, I am going to pay more attention to my little journal online and try my HARDEST to post more.  I am heading to Greece in 12 days for 12 days!  This is a school trip, for credits!  I am traveling without family (just classmates and a professor) and am very nervous.  I'm not sure how this is going to be.  I've NEVER been away from my little one for this long and I'm not going to be able to communicate all that well do to time difference and the cost of calls, so being a stay at home mom, 12 hours away by plane is making me a little, well lets just say....unsettled.

P.M.S. and such....

Unless you have a preteen/teen daughter and you are a woman, you will not know of the hell called "pms".  Unless you have both of those cases combined, and they happen together, you do not know know my hell that is my life, well more so my husbands and my other childrens.   For a couple of days every month it is like bitch-eat-bitch in my home.   Fine when it was just me and I really didnt care, as it was MY time to shine, lol.  But now the lime light is shared, and I really, really dont care for it.  Almost like someone stole my thunder...

I believe, that there should be a law somewhere that states "that there should not be more than one person in a home with P.M.S at one time". 
For a couple most days out of the month in my house it is pure hell.  Its funny, because I have a real "attitude" when I am awaiting aunt flo the witch to show up, but this is 100x's worse now that I have someone to go through it with me. 

Everything gets harder in this circus, it throws it off.  There is a complete aura of pure bitch that cant seem to move out quick enough for anybody that lives here.  I truly feel bad for all parties involved. 

Just my 30 cents :)

Life can be such shit. (from Novemeber 2009)

Life was great mangable up until Friday.  2009 for the most part has been good to us.  I couldnt complain.  Until Friday.  So far this year I have almost completed 2 semesters (3 more to go!)  Kevin has opened two stores, with his company.  Aedan, Maddie and I had a fantastic trip to ND to visit my family.  Things have just been moving along.

Friday a door was shut in our faces.  We were ripped right back into reality.  And now thinking back 2009 hasnt been so nice to us.  Between my energtic little girl getting diagnosed with Lymes Disease and now this. 

On Friday we learned something that NO ONE should EVER have to learn.  We learned about Cancer.  My father in law, who is the light of my son's life, and he the light of his, has cancer.  I dont know how to do this.  Be there for my husband, my in-laws.  Most people are not blessed to have great in-laws.  I do.  They have been the parents that I have never had (which thankfully now I do have a relationship with my family, and it is a blessing <3)  even my sister and brother's in laws are my everything.  I dont think that I've ever said that to them, but they are.  They have showed me what a family is.  The true meaning of it.  The true meaning of unconditonal love.  The true meaning of support.  If it wasnt for them, I can say, I wouldnt be where I am today with school. 

I cant begin to tell you how sad and angry I am.  I do not know what I'm supposed to do with this.  He is a mess.  He doesnt look like himself (well maybe himself, but himself with some major weight loss)  He has no control of his left side of his body, thanks to that shit cancer.  He is not independant, and we cant tell if he will ever be again.  It kills me. 

Halloween and spooky spiders :)

Howdy

Aedan's 1st Halloween Party is today :)  He origionally wanted to be a Ninga just like his big brother, but we decided to sway him to something else....something real cute and very 3 yearoldish ;)  Isnt he the cutest Cowboy you've ever seen????

This is his "treat" to share with his friends at school

Very easy and kid friendly recipe

Marshmellows

Chow main Noodles

Chocolate Chips (melted)

and

M & M's for the eyes!

Yummy! 

1st Mid Term Done!

Ive been stressing something crazy lately :(  I really think this semester is going to make me or break me.  The funny part is, its not my classes for my disapline that are giving me Hell, its the core classes.  I am completely lost in Algebra....I know for a FACT that I am not going to need that when I become a therapist!  I handle the bills in the house, I do our budget.  I've been out of High school for um lets see 13 years and I've yet to come across a point where I need Algebra, and if I did?  Well I would find someone who knows it ;)

I had my 1st mid-term today, I think I did ok.  It was for my Practices with Individuals class.  I love that class.  It is the meat and bones of therapy.  Very interesting.

I came home from school today and just wanted to do NOTHING!  I made some yummie banana muffins and had a nice little nap.  I think if I could sleep the stress away I would!

I set this pic from the summer as my backround on my desk top, he just makes me smile.... I <3 him!

Im really worried about Jake, he is really having a hard time will his spelling and confusing B's and D's.  I get so frustrated when helping him and thats not fair to him :(  I really want to know if this is true deslexia. 

CRAZY :)

Well so much for the chance at the summer that never was....WEATHER SUCKS!  Its October and for the 1st time (that I can remember) it snowed in October....YUCK!  The weather has just been plain crappy, this morning it is rainning and freezing, the kind of day where nothing gets done, you lay on the couch and watch movies and the house seems to just fall apart around you. 

Well life has been a little nuts to say the least.....School is back in full swing.  The kids are all adjusting and I'm only now finding my footing.  I am taking six classes and in hind site, I thought it wouldnt be a problem.  The classes that I chose are pushing me to my limits.  I have to keep reminding myself why I'm doing this, and in the end how worth it, it will be. 

Jake is struggling a little bit this year, he has had trouble with reading and remembering since he started school and we are starting to see a little clearer and have an idea what might be going on.  Together with his teachers we are thinking dyslexia.  We are going to have some testing done and hope that we get some kind of answer soon.  He has lost out on some very presious time and we now need to play catch up. 

Aedan LOVES school, this I didnt expect.  He is at the same school as the other kids and has just surprised all of us with how well he is doing!

Maddi is such a good kid at a bad age.  She really reconginizes the nuttiness of other kids her age and can see (for now) how wacky kids can be.

Julie, is Julie~ still my free spirit.  Laid back and loves life.  She has not had any side effects from her Lymes Disease and I cannot even exlpain how happy that makes me.  She will have it forever, but should not have any symptoms unless she becomes re-infected (which because of where we live, is possible)

Kevin is still working his tail off, but enjoys it.  His boss is out on maturnity leave and he now has the responsiblilty of 2 people, he is doing fine.

So thats the update for now.  I really need to get better at this whole blogging thing.  If I had the time/energy and posted half the crap that happened from day to day, it most likely would be a hit, but I'll take it as my venting space for now.

Fun in the sun :)

Took the kids to a sprinkler park today to beat the heat :) They had a blast! I think we will be going there again!!!!!